I knew it could happen. But I also wasn't quite sure I could get it to go the way I did.
I've been really craving cock for a while. I'd played a while back with a lover of one of my paramours, and the three of us had a nice time. He is big - yum - and has a nice sensuousness I like. I knew then that I wanted more. Tried a few times to get something to happen, but....
So last week I had so many crises I wasn't sure what was happening. Among them was a very tough one that involved this very same paramour. She has a lover that, well, I don't really get along with too well. But at any rate, turns out that in the past week, this same lover had sex with an old girlfriend... who turns out to be a needle user. Major red flags go up. She and I haven't done anything of late, so I'm past the sense that I'm the contaminant, but... lots of hard hard emotions here. So I decide I need to talk to many others. And I do. And this guy is one. I knew he'd have good perspectives - and he did. We talked that for an hour over a beer and a hot tub together. Very nice.
That being done, it was inside for a quick post-tub rinse, and then ....
"So, what's you pleasure?" (My colloquialism for wondering what you want to do next).
"Eh? What do you mean?"
"Well, what would you like to do?"
Quiet thought. Then a few minutes later...
"I don't know. What would you like to do?"
"Play". Holy fuck! I said it. I asked.
"Ok". And we head upstairs.
Oh it is sooo nice to be with someone who can let go deeply. So nice to be able to let ME go so deeply. And we did.
He is so nicely endowed. Uncut. Clean as a whistle. Sensuous. Mmmm. I gave it it up to him for almost an hour. He admitted he had a lot of trouble coming for anyone (I had heard that). I was ok with it, as it was SO nice to go at it. Even after he said he needed a break, I gently kept a lite stroke going and mmm it was good.
We did have to stop - he had obligatory phone calls - his own life has many deep hurts now.
But there'll be more.
And it's almost scary, makes me a little giddy, to think that next time? I won't pause. I'll touch, stroke, seduce and act... Yum.
